Happiness Comes With Time.

 Yeah, uh huh, bitches keep talking, you’re only making me bigger

Jersey, born and raised, nothing special, go figure?

Jumpin in on my bandwagon, follow me, fuck me, try me, be me

It didn’t take awhile to be where I’m at, confident, si.

Cause nothing in this world is as fine as the lines I drew in the sky

Impossible is possible, unbelievable is believable, I cannot die

Cause my life isn’t a fairy tale, and I ain’t no Macbeth tragedy

I be chillin because you be hatin, I be laughin cause it’s comedy 

Shakespeare spit out literacy, still reppin after his death

It’s funny how he was on top after his last breath

Now I’m on top, Icon vs. Invisibility, I don’t see haters, they just see me.

I be Poseidon, the leader of all fishes of the sea 

So powerful, you can’t even take me off all the list

Name after name, fucked em all, left a letter, “you insist…”

She be pissed, but hey gotta stay at the level you be reppin

If you ain’t into her, on to the next, get the steppin

Cause no girl ain’t wasting your time, if she don’t mean much to you

As the big green, bills or ganga, swimming in millions, who knew?

Cause I want a girl to be as crazy as my life

Pictures we won’t remember from the past nights

1000 words, it always last forever, kind of like our love

Give her a symbol to prove we are like two doves

Peacefulness, as we lie asleep

Going hard as a motherfucker, we ain’t livin cheap

She always be my baby, promise no mistakes

Movie in my mind, we don’t know need a remake

I never been in love, they say love is blind

But whenever I see you, I go blank in my mind

My heart knows what it feels

But baby, I was all ready for this kind of deal

You may not know it, but you’re a ten out of ten

A prime example to all the lonely men

That one day a girl will take you by the hand

And show you a whole new world, feet in the sand

Staring off the dock, a whole new adventure

This is the part where one of us is a pretender

Getting married on the beach, staring into your eyes

Damnit girl, I be set for life, til one of us is left to die

I’ll admit, perfect isn’t real, after I said one word to her

My heart split in half, two is better than one, I assure

“Hah I’m done, no need for this Cinderella story boys,

That shit is a legit fairy tale, hah”

Sometimes I just need an outlet, I have absolutely no where else to go because I’m too busy giving a fuck about everyone else, but my own well-being. It doesn’t even matter anymore. Life is such bullshit, and living it one day at a time makes me excited for death a little more each day. Love is being someones best friend, being able to trust them with your life, knowing that they will make mistakes, you know they will learn from them, but how I feel? Love is bullshit and always has been to me. Deceiving “innocent sluts,” go behind my back and lie, cheat, flirt with other men and my question is… why? I use to do everything for girls I did like, but not anymore because if you want to spend time seeing how many cocks you can suck in a week, then hey… I’ll fuck your best friend because it will hurt you more than it will hurt me. Want to know why I’m scared to be with anyone anymore? I’m afraid to get my guard down. I’m afraid of what someone can do to me emotionally because being vulnerable is one of the worst and best feelings in the world. I may not look like anything effects me, but it’s called staying strong and being positive; you can only do that for so long, until I crumble and fall apart. I’m still in love, I hate absolutely every second of it… Because it isn’t fair to me… I use to cry over you… I use to cry over the last girl also… but my tears dried up because you don’t listen to me and you force me to show the side that I like to hide; anger management problems… haha. I love you and you do mean the world to me, I wish you would just grow the fuck up. 

Another problem, I have two of the best friends I could have. The thing is… I might have one taken away from me because his dad can’t be a father, I could be a better father than that scumbag. Losing him to foster care would be one of the worst things to go through because what would I be looking forward to day in and day out, I mean we spent that last 8 days together, he’s been staying here and guess what… he’s a brother to me. I lose him, you’re taking a part of me that isn’t going to go well with the rest of the world, so hey, go fuck yourself, you’re no man for treating your own blood like a fool.

All I am left with, learn to enjoy the little things, but hey… how can you enjoy the little things when you don’t have any big things to look forward too…. a best friend… and my baby….